I am generally known as someone who is very positive and always has a happy disposition. I am humbled that people turn to me when needing support, encouragement, inspiration, non-judgemental advice or just someone to listen to their troubles. I am seen as someone who is strong and able to cope with just about everything that is thrown at them. Well I have a confession to make……
Last Friday morning I had a complete selfish meltdown, felt incredibly sorry for myself and was throwing my toys out of my pram. In fairness to me, I hadn’t had the best of weeks. My Mum was in hospital with double pneumonia and Lisa my fiancée was also in great discomfort with kidney stones. This had given us no choice but to cancel our long-awaited holiday which was so needed by both of us. The final straw was when the hospital discharged my Mum when she clearly did not have the mobility to get up and downstairs unaided. I went into panic mode and the self-pity took over my every thought. Why was everyone having amazing holidays and not me? Why was my Dad clinging to life in a care home and my Mum now very poorly too? How come all my friends own lovely homes and I sleep in a single bed at my parent’s house? My head was literally exploding with self-pity and selfish thoughts to the point I couldn’t concentrate. My emotional state was poor and my wellbeing was not good.
By the following day I was feeling happy with my situation. This is despite my Mum still having limited mobility, my Dad still clinging to life in a Care Home and Lisa still in discomfort. WHY? I had rediscovered GRATITUDE. I was in a significantly better place because I put things into context and remembered how much I have to be grateful for in life.
I reminded myself that I lead a great life compared to so many and am surrounded by people who love me. I have excellent health and so many great things to look forward to in the foreseeable future. I have found true purpose in life with ‘Breaking the Silence’, find it cathartic and it is the best job I have ever had. I am marrying the lovely Lisa, my soulmate and best friend. I am grateful that life currently for David Beeney is about as good as it gets!
My bad day finished the moment my feelings of gratitude began.
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